Wednesday, September 16, 2015

Glitches in Simple Existence

My crazy kitten running around the basement, chasing the air.

A letter written, if it counts as that.

Birthday wishes given, via picture post on Facebook.

I've gotten a lot accomplished for the 23-02 hours.

Still not sleeping.

Why does a single person matter so much to simple existence? Why does it matter that this person is in another place? How is the next room any different than the next county? Yet somehow it is.

Written last night, or this morning, just after 2am.

I fell asleep somewhere close to 4am, I think. And so of course when I was woken up around 5:30am, I barely stirred. I truly woke about 9am, realizing it was most certainly not 6am and that I only barely had just enough time to make the 3hr trip and still be early enough for my plans.

When your sister turns 16 six days after you turn 21, plans are sure to be had. When you arrive in perfect timing to find the realization that she needed a physical and did not get one, plans are sadly changed. Plans that have been in place for quite literally years. But, things happen, life moves, times change and people learn. Which can be half the fun of living, sometimes. Even the hard ones, the ones you endure through to the other end. On that other end, though, you always find better than you could ever have hoped for, if you truly endure through to that end. The good times lead to better, as do the bad. You learn that as you live.

Several days off, fought for but won. You'd think it would be simpler, having had this planned since years past. But... you know, people. Mistakes happen. I'm here. It's all good.

I never seem to write anymore, just ramble.

Stories, characters, swirl in my head but never land. I need the time to discipline my thoughts, perhaps. But they can be like a flag: best shown when flying free. I only need the post to tie them down to, to keep them from tangling in the wind and the trees and getting lost on the globe in the atmosphere.

Hopefully some of this makes sense. I tend to get wordy and no one knows what I'm saying.


  1. I hope you had a good birthday!

    And I hope you get some sleep too. I know what sleepless nights are like. They're no fun. :P

    1. Aw, thank you! Oh yes. Rather frustrating.

      I wrote this back in September, which is ironic because I've had trouble sleeping the last few nights. I found it lingering in my dashboard and decided to just post it. I didn't even edit it like I normally do. Probably why I didn't post it back in September is because I wrote it and saved it to polish up later and post, but instead forgot about it!

  2. I ramble too, my thoughts just don`t behave.

    1. Ikr?! It can be so hard to get them pinned down sometimes...

  3. I actually ADORE the way your write! It's so poetical and deep. It fills my soul and makes me think and gives me that urge to create as well, because of the beauty of it. You've got so much talent!

    Also I'm really happy to see you posting again. It's been a while. I've missed your posts!

    1. Thank you so much! I miss posting, and I miss your reading your blog, and others'. And I miss that character of yours!

      I'm glad to hear that you enjoy them so much. It's always nice to know that people are actually interested in what you're putting out there (but I'm sure you know that).


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